happy new year!!

Hey everybody!! It is now 2011, the YEAR OF TH BUNNY!! Lets just say my bunnies and I are really really excited for it to be the BUNNY YEAR!! I know I have some big dreams for this year.

I hope all your dreams come true too!!

lotta love for the coming year and beyond!

Aimée

Christmas and New Years

This year went by really really quickly!! I can't believe Christmas came and went so quickly.

I didn't get much anything, except I managed to collect a lot of money for charity. The charity I donated to helps those living with cancer, AIDS and other such illness. I thought they needed it more than just a cute little bunny loving bed wetter as myself.

There are a lot of people who are much worse off than I, so being able to give made Christmas more special this year

winter time

well it is chilly again, so it is that time of year for warm bunny snuggles as I sleep.

Nothing like it :) so soft, so cuddly.

yeah, sometimes my AB side really gets to me :) But it is all ok

my story

So I decided to adda page here, and the story I have been writing.

Ok, so It isn't perfect and I may spend the rest of my life adjusting it, but that is life.

I just posted chapter 1 today... Even though I am already at about chapter 15. I need to find a better way to post it than here on blogger though.

I dont want to post it on an AB site or anything like that... just a safe place where I can link all the chapters (because It would be easier for one of my loyal readers to enjoy the story)

does anybody know of a site?

anyway chapter 1 is in the link above

I am almost ready for bed

Ahhhh I am almost ready for bed

I love getting ready for bed

and I love waking up in the morning

I love my bunnies

and I love how I can make negative things so positive...

call it my cheer-attitude or general nature

Really the secret is my religion

My religion is LOVE. I love everything and everyone. I try to find love in every situation, good and bad. I use love to make people feel happy... and I use love to help people.

I love the power of love...

ok, I am going to snuggle up with the bunnies i love in my lovely bed time clothes


nighty night

love
Aimée

hardcore during the day, soft and snuggly at night

oh, it is getting chilly here
luckily my cold is not so bad. I guess being in the best shape I have ever been helps A LOT. If I wasn't in shape I would be feeling miserable. But I am ok.

So I get to practice cheer, dance and be a hard core athlete during the day... Trust me, you would NOT believe how strong I have become! When I run, dance, stretch, do motions and jumps I am very hard core.


and then I get to come home and be a soft little baby girl as I sleep. I get to warmly snuggle up with my bunnies as I sleep with the protection and safety knowing that I will be safe in the morning. As for my bedwetting, it is not nearly as bad as it once was yes, but still from time to time I do wake up a little wet.

It could always be worse. I have a boss who caught a stomach bug in Thailand and has had problems with messing since. So my bed wetting is a blessing in comparison.



When I wake up, I snuggle a bit more and get ready. Then when I am ready I am little miss hardcore athlete again.


I kind of like this contrast in my life. It is much more interesting than just living the same thing day and night!!

what do you think?

achoo

Oh dear
it looks like I am coming down with a cold.

Last time I had a cold it wasn't really so bad, since I was getting in shape. I expect this cold to be pretty easy to take care off as well!

At least I have a little extra warmth in my diaper to make my sleeping a bit more comfortable. Diapering up is nice, when you are feeling a little under the weather.

ok, time to get some orange juice!

2 years ago

Funny it has already been 2 years!

2 years since I started waking up a little wet in the morning...

and to think it will soon be my 2nd birthday since being, reborn to say the least.

I guess since I have been working out, my wetting hasn't been so bad. I got stronger, all over.

I have cheerleader legs now! 100% muscle! My hips are all gone and have been replaced by muscle! I go to the gym and have an amazing leg press which is unheard of for a girl.. like over 200 pounds! I can jump too, doing plyometrics and explosive weight lifting has increased my vertical.

When I hit a cheer jump, and it is nice, hight, and I land beautifully, it feels so awesome.

and yet I come home every night, and diaper up and and softly snuggly up with my bunnies as I sleep.

Before I sleep I play though many scenes of my little story, some happy some sad...

It is nice :)

and now that it is cold, I am sleeping well, and I may be waking up wet yet again. Better safe than sorry...

of corse I have been sleeping "better safe than sorry" for so long now, I can't even remember what it is like to not be diapered as I sleep anymore. odd... but could be worse i suppose

progress

wow! my life is really progressing in a positive direction.

I had the time of my life when I was in America

I know which city I want to live in (despite the costs, I want to make it true)

I am much stronger and more flexible than ever before

My dreams are coming true, slowly but surely!!

and with that... I still find myself dressed like an infant as I sleep. a result of a weak little bladder...

and you know I really don't mind at all. I am too positive and in a constant positive state of being I can see the good in everything. I think that is why I adapted to my situation so well.

Even though I am loosing one of my jobs, I am taking advantage of my newfound free time by working out and bettering myself in one way or other!

and I really hope that all of you can do the same...


I am also glad I found my sport too :)

back into the swing of things

well I am finally getting over my jet lag and back into the swing of things.

on one hand, it is kind of sad because I really want to be back in America...

But I have my bunnies, and my dreams... and that is what is keeping me going.

I have decided to which direction to take my story... the unpopular unrealistic direction, and the reason is I want to know how she.. or I would react in such a situation. I know it is not going to be positive. Most ABDL themed stories have this positive heavenly view of being forced into this situation...

It is going to be hard for me to write this, and it may take a long long time... but I think I need to explore the unrealistic...

does that make sense?

the main character is such a reflection of myself... i just need to do it for me...

but the end, the end should be happy

I am back

Hey everybody

I was gone in America for the past few weeks, and I didn't even get a chance to check my blog or anything like that. Sorry for not writing.

I DID get a chance to use the famous bambino diapers that all the diaper lovers rave about. Personally I am used to my japanese style cloth diapers, so going to a plastic back disposable diaper was odd for me. They were a little bit odd for me to sleep in. They felt really thin and ... well odd

Perhaps if I needed diapers 24/7 I would use them, but for light bedwetting like me, what I have now is still the best. Maybe it is just because this is what I am used to.

But at least I tried.

I had a wonderful vacation. It was nice to see my friends and family again... and I made a lot of new friends as well.


And I am MUCH more cheerful now :) I did try cheerleading and loved every second of it. I would love to find a coach here in Japan to help me out even more.

I also found my old stuffed bunnies from a few years ago... and I bought a new bunny to bring back with me! So my bed is full of bunnies, like always

So yeah! I am back!!

going back...

Hey,
I am going back to America really soon!! Oh I am soooo excited!!

Don't you love it...

Ahhh the weather is starting to cool down... which means I can wear my pajamas again!

I have really fallen in love with that feeling of being all diapered up under your jammies!

It makes me feel so... so snugglish! Thats a good word to describe it. Snugglish!


And snuggling with my bunny as I sleep... It is kind of magical, wouldn't you say?

Last night all my dream were just awesome too! then waking up... well that felt wonderful too...

Well byebye for now... have a snuggish day!

Traveling home

Yeah!! I will be traveling home to see my friends and family really soon

I am really looking forward to leaving Japan this time... and to think, the next time I leave Japan it will be FOR GOOD.

I am getting tired of living here, even though I do like Japanese style cloth diapers. That is NOT a reason for me to stay here. All my friends and family back in the states are living their live, and I am stuck here doing nothing, really. I hate being so far away from everybody... and not being a part of their lives.

So I have decided to move back to America as soon as possible.

I don't know how or what is going to happen, but I think it will be good.

This time will just be a few weeks, next time I will be home!

cooler weather

ahhhhh yeah! The weather has finally decided to become a touch cooler during that night! I can sleep SO MUCH BETTER now that is not hot and humid all night.

Lately I am reminded of how nice it is to wake up diapered as well. While I still like the feeling of falling asleep diapered more than waking up such, there still is a certain degree of peace to it. If I wet, and now that it is cooler and I am sleeping better I sometimes do, or if I am dry, it doesn't really matter.

The peaceful feeling of it all is magical!

my story

Ok so I have been taking a bit of time here and there working on my story. I think I mentioned it a while back.

Here is the rundown of the story

Well the main character is really rather strong. She had a normal childhood until her mom went crazy (this is NOTHING like my mom) and took all her childhood toys away from her. She loved her bunnies a lot, but all but one was taken away when her mom snapped. She was also pulled out of her ballet and gymnastics classes and basically had everything she loved taken away from her. She continued to be a normal child as much as she could with the help of her best friend.

Fast forward a few years to when she is in high school. She makes cheer, despite her mother's objections (her father supports her though). Her mom was ivy-leauge plans for her, which she does not want to do. Cheer is the one positive thing in her life and makes her a very very warm, open hearted, positive person.. despite her upbringing. She can be the most loyal friend, and can cheer anybody up... anybody but mother and a couple of snobby, envious cheerleaders on the squad.

There is a girl at her school who nobody really knows anything about. This girl is kind of weak, and is bullied by other students. She is called a dyke all the times, and generally has a rough time.

This is where our little main character's strength comes out. She decided to try to befriend this abused student in an attempt to end the abuse (and to make a new friend). Well this sets off a chain of events which leads to her thinking about her sexuality for the first time (she has never really thought about it before)..

and this is the crossroads. Now I can continue the story in two different ways. One was can be a self-discovery story based off her sexuality (or lack there of, I don't know anything about sexuality myself so it is tough for me to write about it) and relationship with her friend... in which the story can be read by most anybody.

Or I can take it down the original path I intended to take it. Basically her relationship leads to a big 'accident.' Her best friend gets seriously injured. Although she herself is ok, she is forced to go to the hospital... But she doesn't end up in the hospital. Rather she ends up being kidnapped and it turns out the whole accident which nearly killed her friend was a set up just to get her. She ends up being put back into diapers and reunited with her long lost bunnies. I don't think she would love the diapers as much as I do personally... She is going to go through most of it without really knowing what is going on to her.

But unlike an ABDL story, the diapers are not so much the main focus. Her strength and trust in her friends to help her out will be more important. Plus her desire to continue her love for cheer will open a path for her freedom.




I still think my original path would be more dramatic, but it seems a little less real. I think though getting her OUT of the situation is very important. a typical ABDL story would put the characters into diapers and all is happy after that. But I want her to find a way out because it will make her stronger. It will also open up a larger path that will finally heal her past wounds and give her an amazing future.

I wonder if i can finish this... should i go for it? even if i just write it for a few eyes

Running, working out, sleeping, on my

So as you know, lately I have been really really working out. This is crazy! My body has become so strong, and my belly has become so tiny in the past few months. Next year at this time is going to be super crazy. I think I could easily go a size down in diapers because of this.

But there is a problem I suppose. I work out late at night, and I end my stretching. The stretching feels so good, that I have been tending to fall asleep on the floor right after my final stretch! I woke up at 5:00AM with my lights on, computer running and music playing!! I fell asleep after my last stretch, and I was wearing my stinky gym clothes!!

I fell asleep before i could diaper myself up!!


Thank god I didn't wet myself, if I had it would have been a nasty little mess to clean up

I have got to be more careful

and nope, the summer is STILL not ending...

diapers among other things.

You know, Adrian has a point in her last blog. The problem with the AB/DL community is is toooo focused on just diapers. You cant go there to make friends, unless all you talk about is diapers.

I am a (now occasional) bed wetter who love sleeping in her diapers a lot. I can't imagine NOT sleeping in diapers because I find the whole thing to be so relaxing and perfect for falling asleep. I enjoy being a playful little AB who loves her plushie bunnies to death.

My good friends all know, and none of them has ever been nothing but 100% supportive of me. But I rarely talk diapers with them. We always have so many other things to talk about! In fact I pester my friends with my cheerleading more than anything. I force my friends to chant with me too! To me, even doing simple chants makes me super happy, maybe more so than my diapers... well it is hard to say. it is an apples/oranges comparison. Running will make me happy, Dancing is awesome... bunnies are cute... bunnies are amazingly cute! I love love bunnies!!

gee there are so many things I love.

But I started this blog just so that I can have a place to talk about my bedwetting and diapers without constantly bothering my friends about it. They all know my blog, and they can read it if they want to. However, I don't want to make diapers the only think I talk about with my friends, or I will loose my friends.

and I am glad that my blog is pretty quiet, without much of a following. I would not like it if i got a lot of nasty comments from DLs who would want me to post pictures, or ask me when I wet... I just don't like that.

anyway, it is late at night and my bunnies are telling me sleep sleep sleep. I am all ready too.. so I had better head off

nighty night!

summer wont end...

Well i heard that they think this tokyo heat wave will continue until october!! so that is one more month of 95~100 degree weather for me! Oh yucky! I want to move back to the top of the cool mountains where I came from!!

In fact I have decided that this should be my last year in Japan. I like it, yes, but I have no reason to stay... and I have a big reason to go to California. I am thinking around San Francisco would be nice for me. There are some japanese places so I wouldn't feel too sad. That and it is cool all year around!

Sleeping has been tough in this heat, especially where you are diapered! I sleep on TOP of my bed and cover myself up with a light baby blanket (with a bunny on it) and I snuggle my bunnies and try to sleep. It has been hard, but i do my best.

well time for me to get moving this morning. I do some sort of working out every day! Yesterday I found some great ab work outs which I need specifically for my dream! They are hard, but will get better in a few week!

just keep at it, and you will get better

it is so hot

it is so so so so hot here around Tokyo. The temperatures are up in the high 90s, plus we get reflected heat from all the pavement. But that is not the worse of it. It is hot so everybody uses their air conditioner, which in turns produces MORE heat. All that air-conditioned heat from tokyo moves to where I live and dumps down. So it ends up being well over 100 degrees plus high humidity... I cant really don't like it.

it is so hard to get a good nights sleep. It is hard to fall asleep even with my bunnies and diapers (which I need to fall asleep anymore) Then I wake up really really early and cant get back to sleep.

This year is really hard, but I am still fighting and pushing forward! I still managed to keep on working out and doing what I need to do to meet my goal.

Hopefully it will cool down soon though

I went on vacation

Hi everybody. It is sooooo hot this time in Japan so I took a little vacation just to escape the heat. Went someplace cool.

I had to stay in a hotel with my friend... and this was perhaps the first time I have ever been diapered in the same room with another person, and the other person knew all about it.

In fact, she is my friend who really supported me 110% and really encouraged me when I told her that I wanted to wear diapers to deal with my leaky bladder. She even supported my decision to make my diaper-wearing as babyish as possible...

The first night was ok. But the second night I ended up drinking too much (thanks to my friend who kept on ordering me drinks) The night before I went to bed I told her that I was worried about really wetting myself... she said that I was a baby and if it happens I would be OK. So yeah, I did wake up wet on the second day. It was the first time in a while I woke up wet too. I guess my biggest worry was making sure the smell didn't spread throughout the day. A lot of powder helped keep the smell down... and the fact that I didn't wet TOO badly helped as well.

Anyway, It was nice to escape the heat for a few days. I am looking forward to going to the USA in the fall!

Thanks Nasty

Hi hi!
wow Nasty, Thank you for all 11 of your comments! I don't have the time to reply to them all, but I am really happy to read them all.

I do have some news for you! I started yoga myself too!

gee I haven't been writing much in my story lately... I have been working out!!

Maybe i should start, but for now I need to sleep!

thanks again

dreams

Hi hi
Aimee here! You know I have been working really really hard on making my dreams come true

Most people are supportive of me and push me to go further

Sometimes I do get nasty criticism. In fact yesterday my cowokers told me that there is NO WAY I can do what I want to do.

so what did I do?

Did I cry? NO

Did I feel bad? NO (in fact, I kept on smiling)

I took the bad criticism and used it as an reason to push myself even harder.

So when people say bad things about you, prove to them that they are WRONG! Show them that you can do it!

good luck

Aimee

hi hi! Aimee here!!

I am soooo sorry I haven't posted anything in a while. I have been really focusing on getting some awesome goals! I still have a lot to do, so I have to work hard

I have been loosing inches off my belly... and it has been making my nightly diapers fit a little bigger, thus making me feel like a smaller baby! My bunnies are super happy!

However I have a little problem... the HEAT. it is HOT this year, and I can't sleep with any covers on whatsoever. I am basically sleeping only in my diaper and that is it. It is SO HOT here!!

does anybody know how to beat the heat while diapered??? if so, i need some advice.

anyway I have to continue working :( sorry

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I have just been so happy lately I cant even begin to express it! Everything is going great!!

I have been on a total rush of happy energy this past week, I cant even contain myself!!

At night, I snuggle up with my bunnies, and in my diapers. Durring the day I am just a little smily peppy powerhouse!

Ahhh
Life is great!

I hope it is great for you too!

Summer...

Lately I haven't been sleeping to long. With all the running and training I have been doing, you would think I would sleep like a rock. Well you are right. Once I diaper up, snuggle my bunny and go to bed, I sleep like a baby (my favorite way to sleep) But the sun just comes up so early, and there is no daylight savings time in japan. So I have been waking up at strange hours.

And the fact that It is hot has kind of caused me to stop bedwetting. I haven't really wet for a while now, because i don't really have too much to go out in the morning. I drink a lot of water yet I still feel dehydrated. So my little weak bladder can keep what I have.

I guess that is this summer for me. I need to keep really hydrated and keep my health up! So I guess I should be happy.

But waking up wet makes me feel babyish, and I am kind of missing the feeling now

oh well, at least I am still diapered up!

It is not very very hot!!
oh and sleeping in a diaper, that makes it even HOTTER. My bunnies are all bleh, and nobody can sleep well.

Does anybody have any tips for sleeping well in the summer?

Funny I have been really working out and it does knock me out, but I wake up early.

but it seems my diapers are getting a little bit bigger, since I am getting a little bit smaller...

anyway, I hope you have a nice day

To Nasty Blind

I am sorry, I seemed to have lost your last comment. So I will make a post for you.

I am very sorry to hear about the murder of your yoga guru. That is a terrible thing to do to ANYBODY. I hope you are doing ok.

I am of course glad to be of service. Being positive, even in times like this, is so important, despite the difficulty of keeping your sanity.

good luck! I will always be cheering for you

dont stop me now

This so is just toooooooooooo cool beyond words

Even though I am diapered, I am happy and am NOT going to stop doing the things I love in life.

Too many people are ashamed of themselves and go hide in a box! NOT ME!


anyway, this is just a great happy song... and I am totally going to have to make a cheer routine to this one day...



yeah, so anyway, this song would make a great song to do a cheer dance too... so yeah, writing my story got me thinking a lot about this lately. Why do I start cheerleading? I have always wanted to cheer, dance, tumble, fly...

In high school I couldn't do it because 1) I was too depressed. 2) I was too tall. 3) I was too fat. 4) I was too this 5) I was too that. Most of it was mental.. yeah

that and I HATED the snobby attitude that is often associated with them. I still do. I dont like snobbiness at all. But my friend was a cheerleader in HS and always talked about it.

I have never cheered, for I was (and always will be) a band geek, but I have always wanted to do it. So when I was running the other day, I kicked my leg up into the air to the 4th or 5th step of the monkey bar ladder in the park, it was EASY for me. I was surprised at how flexible I have gotten in the past few months. I realized that I could learn some simple dances and routines. In a few more months I will be able to do the splits if I really work at it.

So I decided to once again defy all odds and learn cheerleading even though I am much too old to start (bleh to that!!!)
I am going to practice some dances and cheers on my own, practice stretching, kicking and jumping. If i am doing good enough I may even start and adult gymnastics classa and see if I can get some flipping going (that would be really awesome). Right now I am just going to do it myself and learn to do as much as I can. I may even one day try out for an adult squad (there are 2 that I know of).

The thing is this has always been a dream of mine, and I am going to do it.

and trust me, finally seeing this as a real possibility in my life is just AWESOME

story

Wow

this is amazing. I managed to get 4000 words done in this story of mine. I finished 4 chapters and I am not nearly done! Maybe the diapers will come around chapter 6 or 7?

but this story of mine is much more deeper than just wearing diapers, or a situation of being put into diapers. Granted that is what happens... but I thought it through to the very end and there are some really good deep issues that come out of this

wow the characters are so real. I have never written such real characters in my life. Mostly because I am the main character in more than one way. She is very very much a real part of me.

But there are some surprises. The mother character.. where did she come from. My mother was NOTHING like this mother.

I have played out the story already time and time again. Basically it is about a 16 year old cheerleader with a troubled past and a terrible reality. Despite this she remains determined and optimistic and cheers her heart out. Something happens and she finds herself in diapers and getting the full baby treatment. But it goes much much beyond this.

I can't begin posting chapters until it is done!!

stories

So I read through the story that nasty blind told me about... this one here

http://www.foxtalestimes.com/Stories/home.htm

well it was a nice little story, and it really got me feeling warm and snuggly as I diapered up last night. But I have been thinking of my own story. I have had a few diaper related stories going around in my head, but it is the big one that is often the best. The problem is, it would be rather long if I were to write it out. I am thinking of something near 80 pages...

that is just the way I am I suppose

perhaps I should just write it out and post out parts on my blog here for you to read.

I do know the diapers wouldn't even be introduced until at least chapter 3-4

what do you think? should i do it

Vacation

Sorry I haven't been writing the past few days. The truth is I had my first vacation in over a year, and the second vacation I have had since I stared bed wetting. You know, just because i need diapers to sleep doesn't mean I am going to shy myself away from a good time.


Every year, my music teacher has a music camp out in the woods by a lake. Although the cabin is pretty roomy, there are always a lot of people, and I always end up with a roommate. Last year there were 2 other girls in the same room as me, and I really really needed a diaper to sleep. It was during the time when my bed wetting was pretty bad, and I did wet myself that night. I did manage to get my diaper on and off without anybody really finding out. It was quite an adventure, but I suppose I could have talked to my roomies about it, but it really wasn't necessary. I managed to make it not necessary!

This year I had it easy! I was the only girl at the camp... thus I had a room to myself! So my bunnies (of course they came with me... at least 4 of them did) and slept very comfortably and without worry. It made the idea of sleeping in a room other than my own a bit better. However, I did make it through last year ok, and I was more than prepared to explain my situation if it was needed.

next month I will also have a weekend trip with my friend. We will be in a hotel room together, and I will, without reservation, wear my nursery diapers (well all my diapers an diaper covers haver nursery patterns, but that is beside the point) and snuggle up with my bunnies as i sleep. My friend already knows I am a bed wetter and she encouraged me to go back into diapers, so she is totally ok with it.

I think in general if you need diapers, people are ok with it. So if you are a bed wetter, you don't really need to let your diapers get in the way of having fun!

Happy to be of service.

Yeah! So one of my faithful readers, Tony, just told me he got some Japanese cloth diapers. He got them from the same company I order from, Omutsu and Pants (Omutsu is diaper in Japanese).

I like them because they custom make the diaper covers for you. You get to choose the style and the fabric. Of course I always choose the fabrics with bunnies (Ok, so I have some strawberry diaper covers too. But they are cute)! It takes about a week or two for them to make the diaper covers for you.

They also make some baby clothes, which I am always going back and fourth about buying. My AB side really wants to dress up like a baby every now and then, but my A side is too frugal (hence I chose cloth in the first place)

They make some really cute things, but they ship only in Japan

Tony had a way to get them to the US through a friend. So if you can find a way to order some diaper covers from O&P go for it!

here is their website again

http://www.omutsu.co.jp/

Thickness...

Ok I guess I will put in my 2 cents on the issue of diaper thickness. Now I guess one advantage of the Japanese cloth diapers I am using is that it is super easy to control the thickness by simply adding or removing cloth. I would have to admit that my first night back in diapers I probably added a little bit too much and made it too thick. Of course I was not used to wearing at that time, and i was concerned about having enough in there to protect my bunnies from my leaky bladder (because that is the most important thing you know).

I have found that a diaper that is too thin feels very insecure. But thinness is something that most adult diaper companies like to market towards. I don't think I could sleep soundly in one of those paper thin diapers, I wouldn't feel safe at all. Even if it were safe, I wouldn't be able to even fall asleep. Whereas if your diaper is too thick, it can get quite uncomfortable.

I guess those with a fetish are always on the lookout for super thick diapers. But I don't have a fetish as I am a bed wetter, being too thick can really rub against my skin in a strange way, thus making it hard for me fall asleep.

I have been wearing diapers to bed for a year and a half now, and I have finally found that nice happy-medium between thickness, comfort and feeling of protection. For me it is about 3 inches (which is considerably thicker than what is on the market as disposables).

Hard day..

I had a hard day at work, mostly because a coworker whom I really liked had her last day today

We also had some issues, and my co-workers and my boss completely are at heads with each other, and I am kind of stuck in the middle.

anyway, I am all diapered up and ready for some nice bunny snuggling

no matter how hard a day I have, I can always end the day with a smile on my face and a bunny in my hands.

I hope you are smiling too.

Music

I love music and I play several instruments just for fun. I also always have to have some music playing in the background. I tend to stream music from the iTunes radio stream because it is a great way to get many different types of music for free.

This is great for somebody like me, because I can listen to pretty much everything. I can also find the good in everything if I just listen to it for a while.

I have found that the ambient music streams are great for diapering up and getting ready for bed. The music sends you to another world, and the diaper is very relaxing for me. It is kind of trippy I guess. But It really helps settle my mind down for a good nights sleep, something an insomniac bed-wetter always really needs.... peace of mind and good sleep.

I don't know why, but waking up in my diaper this morning was just special. Ok, so I slept in. I slept 9 hours... a couple of days ago I ran 7 miles to train for my marathon, and I guess my body needed the sleep. But waking up in my diaper just feet really really wonderful. Not only is it super cute, because i love cute (or Kawaii as said in Japan) but it makes me feel wonderful. Wet or not I just feel really happy.

and that is what is important I suppose, just be happy.

Summer..

It is starting to become summer here in Japan... which means hot hot hot hot
it is toooooo hot for me in the summer, but last summer I managed to sleep in my diapers every night.

it was hot, but I slept with only tiny a baby blanket covering my shoulders..

what do you do to stay cool in diapers in the summer?

My favorite story

Well if this doesn't say I am an eternal child, nothing will

My favorite story of all time is Alice in Wonderland. I have read the book about a million times, I know a lot of cute little alice references, I have seen many Alice movies (in fact there have been more movies made of Alice than you know.. it is very common)

The new movie was OK. Being a big Alice fan I didn't go in expecting to see Alice as in the book. In fact, NO alice movie is like the book. It had its things that annoyed me, and delighted me. I wont go into details, but the things that were made up were annoying, and all the tiny references to the two little books delighted me. the music was really good too.

But I, like most Lolita girls, am obsessed with Alice. Ok, so I did wear my Alice dress when I saw the movie :) and I plan on making another one.

I think I can easily be diapered up and dressed like Alice... I mean, NOBODY would ever know unless my diaper leaked. But the dresses are so expensive... I am soooooo obsessed with keeping my diapers from leaking.

I downloaded the Almost Alice soundtrack from itunes. I kind of like it because all the songs are Alice-themed. It is a nice 'lounge around in your diaper and draw a picture' soundtrack.

Anyway, I guess being a baby is part of Aimée's wonderland :)

What about you? what stories do you like? do you have any diaper music?

Places to see in Japan

I have been asked to talk about something off subject.. instead of my usual love of being all diapered up (which i want to be right now!! But I have to work soon) I was asked to talk about places to see in Japan.

Well Tokyo is a big ugly city which is a fine example of the Japanese lack of urban planning... the streets are a mess, the buildings are not so pretty... and the skyline is not all that great. I mean, if you look at Hong Kong, or Seattle or even Paris... they all have recognizable skylines, but Tokyo doesn't

If you really want to see Japan, you should really step away from Tokyo. Yeah, there are some things worth seeing in the city, but real, Japan is in the countryside.

Now my favorite place is Northern Japan, the Tohoku region of Japan. I often go there for vacations (but it has been years since) Yamagata is my favorite place, especially Yamadera, which is a temple on the top of a mountain with about 1000 stone steps to climb. Going up isn't so bad, going down is the killer. Also small places like ginzan onsen are wonderful little get aways.
Aomori is nice too, especially around apple season.

If you want really beautiful scenery, head south towards Shikoku, which is the Island across the bay from Oksaka/Kobe. Shikoku has some really nice moutain/waterfall scenery!

That is one thing about Japan, naturally it is a really dense green country. Lots of trees and dark forests. Unfortunately a lot of this is being torn away to build towns... But if you go into the mountains, the trees are amazing.

If it is food you like, then osaka is the place to go. The Tacoyaki and Okonami yaki is famous... Kyushu, the southern island has some great food too, but i have never been there.

And Okinawa has very beautiful blue waters...but I would go there just to listen to their unique style of music.. it is kind of like smooth island rock, but with a touch of traditional Okinawanese


I hope this helps... I suppose It is just a quick rundown. But I really haven't been on a real vacation since being back in diapers. Mostly because I have been to busy working away...

byebye for now

you tube videos..

So I watched a few videos on youtube about some AB girls...

I did find some somewhat tasteful videos, well as tasteful as tv talk shows can be...

It was interesting about how I related to some of the girls I saw. Well first of all I am thinner than the girls I have seen :) I guess that IS a plus in my favor. I mean, I AM training to run a full marathon... But that aside.

I could really relate to the emotional connection and stress relief of wearing diapers. Wearing diapers and being a baby, for me, is a great little joy I look forward to each and every day.

I do act like a kid in a way, but i am not as childish as some of the girls in the video. I can never "have a daddy" or "draw on the wall" or things like that. I do snuggly with my bunnies, and I keep them close to my heart. But I am not interested in baby characters or baby TV shows. I could never be one of those adult babies surrounding themselves with characters geared towards toddlers. I don't find baby toys all that amusing, with the exception of my bunnies. I do LOVE stuffed animals, have pink jammies, love to draw pictures ..

and I occasionally use my pacifier, when my bunny feels the need to give it to me.

I am my own sweet little baby, and I have no interest in being naughty and the idea of being spanked is sooooooo strange to me.

I am just sweet and cute little sugar and spice, everything nice girl. I think that is also why I love things like lolita fashion... They have some of the most prettiest dresses you have ever seen, and it is an AB's dream... and I wear them out in public all the time.. heck I even wear them at work from time to time. My company encourages people to do things like that to help with the line of work I am in (I don't want to say to protect my privacy)

So I guess I am an adult baby in my own little special way that is perfect for ME

now I got to get into the shower so I can get into my diapers and draw a picture with my bunny

Answer to my question

Well here is my answer to my question!
I guess it is hard to answer, asking it is like asking which do you like better, ice cream or chocolate.

but I guess I would have to say I like falling asleep in my diaper just a touch bit more than waking up. Now waking up in a diaper is a great way to start the day, it is very satisfying, wet or dry... but falling asleep is what I have learned to love most about having to wear diapers to bed.

As I have mentioned before, diapers have really helped with a lifetime of onset insomnia. I fall asleep much easier since I started diapering up before going to bed. I also love the feeling and sent of a fresh diaper. A fresh diaper hasn't fully adjusted to your body yet and it is still really noticeable. I guess there is an excitement to it, but it isn't anything sexual... it is just pure joy. When I snuggle up with my bunny I just get so so happy. It is the perfect way for me to end my day

and with that, i am going to get some bunny snuggles and go to bed.

nighty night

which is better...

Which do you think is better?

Falling asleep while being all diapered up?

Waking up in a diaper (wet or dry)?



Both have their good points... I have my answer, what is yours?

a couple of long days...

well it has been a couple of long days for me. I have been out, and not coming home until late at night.

and there is nothing better than ending a long day than diapering up and snuggling with a bunny. It really makes all stress and bad feelings go away. I get a small peace in my heart when i am all diapered up, protected and ready for bed, and wearing a nice fresh diaper is heavenly.

ahhh so snuggly

now for some other news, i did draw a picture of myself. A very cute little picture of me, as a baby of course... and holding my bunny. My friends said it was really cute... and it is :) I am at a loss as to post it here on this blog. On one hand I want to share it, but on the other hand I do want to protect my privacy as much as possible. I guess that is one reason why I don't like to post pictures or drawings... I guess most people who read my blog won't do anything that to hurt me. But there are a few bad apples in the diapered community who may take my pictures... and find out more about me

maybe I am worrying too much.. but I do have to keep myself safe. My bunny would rather have a safe little girl to look after.

waking up in damp diapers

Well it is now getting warmer here... and that means I am waking up in damper diapers. Mostly because it is getting hot and wearing diapers doesn't do much to cool you down at night. that IS true.

Also I have been running a lot lately. I am on a marathon training schedule because I would like to run a full 42k, 26 mile marathon in one year. I am now up to about 10 K...

One thing I have noticed about running is that I have to go to the bathroom a lot more than normal. As I run and burn fat, my body cleans itself of all the nasty things inside... and thus I am going a lot more often at night...

Hence I wake up in damp diapers as of late. Do to both the heat and my weak little bladder..


funny, I have been sleeping in diapers for a year and a half now... and I still look forward to it every night. I guess that is better for hating myself for it.

I know a person who just started wearing them after getting a strange stomach flu... he is miserable with them.. But I try to stay happy and positive :) you should too

Oh dear, I forgot

Oh dear! I have forgotten to post lately. I still have yet to spend the money on buying some diapers... so I don't have much to say about them at this time!

But I am still here :) bunnies and all!

Now I should try...

Well, A kind reader now living in Japan has given me some suggestions for some brands of adult diapers to try. I have no big need to try since my wetting is usually at night, and I have had great success with my cloth diapers. But I guess there are some times when I just don't want to do laundry...

I have no physical need to wear diapers during the day, but there are some times I wouldn't mind it...

Anyway, I have decided to try... It may take some time (aka, wait until pay day) but we'll see.

I will let you know what I think when I get them

Where i get my diapers

Ok, I had a comment from tony which led me to a great idea for a post. He asked where I get my japanese diaper covers. Because they ARE cute. Well Lucky for me, I started bed wetting in Japan, where I do have access to some really cute diapers to make feel like a sweet little baby as I snuggle my bunny and sleep. I was really surprised :)

anyway, I order my diapers here:

http://www.omutsu.co.jp/

There are a few other places to get them, but the sites are so awfully designed, I can't even order off them. O&P is easy to order from... IF you can order in Japanese that is

The disadvantage of o&p is that you need to speak japanese, and you need a japanese bank account to pay. Also they only ship in Japan, but I am sure you can use a special shipping service.

Anyway, they have a variety of different designs they make, and you get to choose which fabric they have. They also have a lot of options you can choose.. add lace, ruffles, little ties. I like the little hip ties the have stared to add because they are cute. The diapers covers are lined with a super soft plastic. I think they changed the plastic they use. Now it is a million times softer than before! It is pretty snuggly.

I have never had a problem with anything I have ordered from them : ) It has all turned out very cute

Now as for the diapers... I buy the fabric from baby stores or off amazon.jp. If you search for 布オムツ (nuno omutu = cloth diaper) you will find this type of cloth http://bit.ly/ddfisT
or even http://bit.ly/d8tAnx which are the diapers I use!! They have BUNNIES! and you can tell they are 34x70 cm. If you combine 10 or 12 of them they work really well for an adult. That is what I have been doing, and I have been happily sleeping since! They have done a wonderful job of keeping my bed dry for my bunnies.

warm...

Well it was warm today, but it is going to be winter like and cold and rainy tomorrow. But I will stay warm.

Lately I have been going to the park to do some running. I often see little toddlers playing in the sandbox.
I can't help but think about how they must feel wearing their diapers all the time

my AB side always gets to me... I kind of envy them in one little way I guess

National Poetry Month

April is national poetry month, so i guess i will try. No need to say what this is about


nightly rituals
daily joy
taken away on a journey to a far away land so close to home

incredible comfort
remarkably relaxed
protection from all the worries this world can bring

constant feeling
never-ending
endless reminder of always being there

Sweet soft smell
slight little crinkle
sensational ride beyond the wildest of imaginations

growing older
blurring of age
growing up to the sweet child so meant to be

bunny warmth
bunny snuggle
loving snuggly care no medicine can ever provide

Broken body
mended heart
Delightfully sleeping peacefully night by night

i have a cold..

Well the temperature here has really been up and down and up and down. We have had one nice spring day followed by a week of cold and rain. This last week has been really dramatic. On monday it was raining and cold at about 50 degrees... tuesday it was around 70~75 degrees and sunny, Wednesday it went back down to 40 and has stayed there since. It even snowed a bit this morning!

This is very strange weather for spring in Japan. Normally it is around 60 degrees and rising in April.

and well this month and a half of up and down weather has finally caught up to me. I have caught a cold. yucky!

Sleeping is always tough when you have a cold, but I have found that having a diaper on makes it a bit more bearable. Normally It takes me hours to fall asleep when I have a cold. But this time it only takes me only 20~30 min. I just diaper up, snuggle my bunny under my blankets and get all comfy.

magic..

You know, there is something kind of magical about sleeping in diapers.
This is one of my favorite things.... after I put my diaper on and pajamas... I get under my covers and just melt. There is something about wearing a diaper and being all tucked into bed which just feels magical.

Then snuggling up with a stuffed animal just feels special. I have my bunny, of course.

being tucked into bed while wearing a diaper is just wonderful.

When I wake up i don't really feel the night magic as much. it is more contentment in the morning. Wet or dry, I am just content.

Spring

Well spring has finally decided to come to Japan. The weather is nice, the bunnies are hopping, and I am feeling much better now than I was a few weeks ago. I also started my running again.
I went out running with a friend this time. Normally I do it alone..

Now when I am running I am thinking about only the finish line, and how great it will be to just reach my goal.

I get home and I shower and then it is diaper time. I diapered myself up and fell asleep rather easily. It felt really good.

Now that I am thinking about it, I wonder what it is like to run in diapers. It must get awfully hot. I remember Adrian talking about it on her blog. You really wound need a diaper that would keep you dry. But I can imagine how hot it would be

Well, that is the good thing about my situation. I only need diapers at night and when I want to be a baby.

all day every day...

A lot of AB/DL's like to fantasize about being in diapers 24/7. While I am an AB bed-wetter, and I sleep in diapers, I often wonder if I can be in diapers 24/7. I know better enough to be careful of what you wish for because you just might get it.

I suppose that maybe I will try it for fun around the new moon (when I strongly feel the need to be a little baby anyway), but If it ever came to the point where I needed diapers 24/7 I wonder if i could keep the same feeling of happiness i have with them as I have now?

Perhaps I could, since I tend to try to make the best of any situation. But I do know that realistically, it would be an emotional roller coster for quite a while. I suppose it would be like moving to a new country. At first you think it is great, then after about 3 months culture shock begins to set in. Culture shock is mostly accompanied my depression and feelings of loneliness, you also begin to hate things that you once liked. It takes about 3-6 months for culture shock to wear off, but sometimes people never get over it.

Culture shock comes in waves, a lot of ups and downs...

And I think that going into an all-diapered lifestyle would be very similar. Sure at first it would feel nice and happy, but then after a while you will get down. Then if you keep it up you will be happy again, followed by another depression.. and it would take a while before it becomes just a part of who you are.

Personally, I am content with wearing diapers at night. I see no problem in it at all, even though my bed wetting isn't too bad anymore. But I don't think I would be able be in diapers 24/7. at least not yet.

but perhaps I will try it... just for a few days at a time.


I don't know...

we'll see

oh dear! tomorrow is Easter!! I am so not ready yet! The bunnies and I have a lot to do
and alas I have to work all day long today and tomorrow.

oh well, as long as I have my bunnies, I'll be fine.

nothing new :) just here with my bunnies. I kind of slept in today since I don't have to work (scary! me not working?)

I haven't been wetting me bed so much lately. I don't know it kind of goes in and out in phases.. I suppose I could sleep without a diaper tonight and wake up dry. That is, if i could even fall asleep without a diaper anymore. Probably not.

I have always had a touch of insomnia, and have always had a hard time falling asleep. I can not for the life of me sleep in a moving vehicle, whether it be a bus, train, airplane or whatnot. If somebody is snoring, I can not sleep period.

It normally takes me 40~60 min to fall asleep. Even my mom had trouble putting me to sleep when I was a baby...

It was really bad when I was a teenager, when it would take me 90~120 min!

But I have noticed that ever since I started wearing diapers at night, I have found it easier to fall asleep. I now can fall asleep in 20~30 min.

I guess being all diapered up helps remind my body of being a baby and relaxes me enough to fall asleep easier.

So I guess even though my wetting isn't so bad at this time, I still have another reason to keep on wearing diapers as I sleep...

Easter with my BUNNIES

Easter is coming!! Yeah!!
Now I am not super religious, but I love easter. Ok, I love bunnies! I really really really love bunnies! That is why I have almost 20 bunnies on my bed who sleep with me every night. They help me get over my general loneliness.

Both my mom and a friend of mine sent me bunnies for easter! Lets just say my room is bunny heaven!

I even have bunnies on my diapers (both the cloth and the diaper covers)

I am also really into lolita fashion, and have been since before becoming a bed-wetting AB. Lolita fashion is all about little girl innocence and sweetness. I love combining easter and lolita because it gives me an excuse to focus on easter dresses. When I was a child I LOVED easter dresses. I wanted to wear nothing but easter dresses everyday. Well, now that I am also lolita, I get a chance to wear easter dresses! LOL I also have an Alice dress.. and I am thinking of making a bonnet.

SO my bunnies and I are planning a party. I am going to wear one of my pastel dresses... oh dear I wish I had a yellow dress, but I will most likely go with Alice Blue or pink... and my bunnies and I are going to begin with a tea party. It will be like a little girls tea party. Maybe my teddy bears will come too, but they have been having a tea party for the last 2 months.. They like to talk about philosophy and politics over tea... Now they are having some discussion about Shakespeare or something .. silly bears

So the bunnies and I will then eat carrot soup! I LOVE carrot soup. I only started to make it because carrots are very inexpensive. IF you make it well it has the texture of a potato soup but with carrot nutrition and without potato starch. Plus my bunnies love it.
s..
After our carrot soup, we may go for a walk in the park, paint easter eggs... decorate the room in more pastels.


Yeah, with me being lolita, AB, and a bunny lover EASTER is a wonderful little time for me to fully be me...

and well, all the other days of the year have to be like easter..

in the mean time, I found a cute little bunny video in Japanese. I love the music. Usagi is rabbit in Japanese ;)

I LOVE this song... oh I NEED to sing it at Karaoke... and one of my little bunnies always dances to it..

maybe i should try..

You know I was thinking... Maybe I should try some disposable diapers here in Japan... just to see what they are like... maybe do reviews?

I don't know..


what do you think?

Adult diapers in Japan

Ok, There are plenty of adult diapers in Japan... but from what research I have done into them, I am totally not interested in them at all.

One of the highest rated adult diaper in Japan is Attends, which as Adrian says is only a mid-class diaper. Plus here they are all "cloth like," there is no plastic backed diapers at all in this country. I am only a bed wetter, so I don't need to wear diapers all the time, but If i did have to, I don't think I would feel very safe in any of the adult diapers offered here in Japan.

First of all, I really like lolita fashion, and I wear a lot of expensive dresses. They are super cute and make me feel really happy :) Like my diapers do at night. But If I needed diapers during the day, I would like something that would make me feel safe...

And another reason why I really don't like adult diapers in Japan is the marketing behind them. I am in my 20's, and technically and adult. Even though I am a bit Adult Baby, I still have the freedoms and responsibilities of an adult. But I am a young adult. Adult diapers are not marketed for adults... rather they are marketed for old people. If you go to the web sites or the stores, you see a bunch of smiling people in their late 60s~80s. The packaging shows animated grandma and grandpa with their canes, walkers, and wheelchairs. Or they show people who are sick and bed ridden...

I am not old, nor am I sick nor bed ridden.

I am just a girl who was taking medicine for something un-related, which caused her bladder to go weak at night (or that is the most probable cause because the meds really made me have to go, like every 5 min). so my bladder doesn't work that well.. but that doesn't make me old nor sick in bed.

I am sure that there are many people in their 20s-30s and so on who need diapers.

But this idea that they are only for 'old and sick' makes me feel really bad about them.

I am very happy with my diaper choice... cloth diapers with nursery prints bought from a baby store. Besides, I am closer in age to babies than I am to grandmothers...

Well it is night time here, and I am all diapered up, ready for some bunny snuggles and sleep.


I remember a few months after I first started wearing diapers. I wondered if it was strange to like wearing diapers, as I have found... and is it strange to be a baby about it.

Well I asked my best friend..

she told me no! it isn't strange at all. I am cute and I am happy with it.. and most important my bunnies are really happy with it and that is all that matters.

I guess as long as I am happy.

the new moon is coming and this time I am mentally preparing. I always have strong urges to just be a baby and snuggle up during the new moon. I am still curious as to why that is... But i think about it all the time during the days of the new moon.

what about you, do you have any certain times when you just feel like you need to be a baby?



on an unrelated topic, the Paralymics have started (or will be starting really soon). I always think that the Paralymics are really cool because the athletes go through great odds and challenges to compete. I mean, visually impaired downhill skiing just amazes me. Now I can not ski... but to do it and not be able to see. The same thing goes with visually impaired biathlon. To ski blindly, then shoot a target... that is really inspirational.
I have known a medalist in the 2004 Paralympics... and this year I know another competitor. She is in a wheelchair and I think it is really cool that she is competing.

oh dear!

oh dear! i forgot that I have to approve my comments now! I simply forgot! I am not used to it at all..

Anyway, i just got in my diaper and I have my bunny with me. She is still kind of sad for loosing her blanket... but we are trying to move on.

once again i have been thinking about what Adrian said in her last post... incontinence just... well happens and in her case there is nothing she can do about it. My bed wetting just happens too... really there is no rhyme or reason. I can just drink the water for my pills and wake up soaked, or I can drink a couple of cups of hot chocolate before going to bed and wake up as dry as a bone.

I cant really imagine what it is like for her though... I mean I cant imagine being at the movies or a broadway play and making a mess... But it is her life. But I like her common sense approach to it. I guess as a bed wetter i am not really forced to TELL everybody as she was. But I guess that makes her stronger in her own way.

I guess it is just how how you choose to deal with it. I choose to make it a positive thing in my life.

as a result, my diapers make me strong too.

anyway, i am sleepy now

nighty night!

On saturday I fell asleep while using on a pacifier. There was this funny thing about wearing diapers that made me want to use a pacifier from time to time. So i got a cute pacifier with a bunny on it, of course. I love bunnies!!

Oddly it took me a long while to get used to my pacifier. I would normally only use it for a few min at a time. Then my cheeks began to hurt.

They hurt for about 2 weeks, during which i stopped using it.

But since then I have had no problem.

Now i use it from time to time as I sleep. My bunny gives it to me

on a sad note, last night my bunny lost her little blanky! she has been really really sad. I gave her a new blanky but she still seems sad. Hopefully my friend can find it...

bunny snuggle

you know what i love... whenever i put on my diaper I feel like I am just melting... I just love that feeling where you just breath out and you can feel all stress and pressure melt away from your heart!

everything bad just melts away!

and then I grab my snuggle bunny and get some bunny snuggles. Just having one of my bunnies with me really helps my child like side just sink in

I just love the snuggly feeling of it all.


I also love bunnies.

Just as a little aside, I always donate money to rabbit rescues. I just donate a few dollars every now and then... but if that can buy some of the bunnies some fresh hay or help them get a loving warm home, it is worth it. Even though I am a half a world away, I give some money to the love-a-bun rabbit rescue in Florida

I want a pet bunny... well two bunnies really badly. However since i live in Japan and I don't know how long I am going to stay, I cant adopt some. Maybe if i were to move back to the states I could have a bunny... but that would be a financial suicide nowadays...
we'll see...

until now, if you go to the animal shelter, think about taking home a bunny... they are full of snuggles!

Diaper shame..

One of the things I have been thinking about lately is why are so many people so ashamed of diapers?

Personally I am very happy as a diaper wearer, and I don't see anything wrong about it in any way shape or form. But I am an exception.

The shame of diapers come from early childhood. As a baby is is ok, and in fact considered very cute to see babies in diapers. We take pictures of our babies in diapers and display them proudly. But 4 years later, the diaper... the symbol of cuteness for a baby becomes a symbol of pure and utter shame for the young child.

Maybe it is because mom is tired of dealing with diapers and forces the kid out of them (sometimes too early). Diapers becomes something only babies wear.. and 3-4 year old children are NOT allowed to be babies. Children tend to be extremely cruel to anything they see as not-mainstream. Children then tell each other how bad it is to be wearing diapers, even though a lot of them are still wearing diapers! But they develop this mindset, diapers are bad, at such an early age.

at around age 5-6 diapers are strictly forbidden. The ultimate shame!! It is the blunt end of jokes and teasing... and that is accepted and enforced as normal behavior for children

I can't image what an incontinent child of 5-6 goes through, but I am sure it is hell. Anybody who still wears diapers at that age is obviously a failure...

well this shame continues throughout adulthood

and even as a lot of people 'loose control' and begin to need wearing diapers in their adult life, they are extremely shameful. They are too embarrassed to buy diapers in the store. They want the diaper to be as thin and quiet as can be... because all hell will break loose if they are discovered. Adult diapers still continue to be the blunt end of shameful jokes..



Well I don't like this shame at all

I am a diaper wearer, and I am not ashamed of it. It happened and the best thing I could do was to make the best of it. Of course I did it by taking the AB route. Not only did it save me a lot of money, it made me the happiest little baby girl ever.

And what is so shameful about returning to the time when you were your cutest, everybody adored you, and you were taken care of? Nothing! It is pure joy. I am so lucky that I discovered this happiness

In fact the first thing i did when i started bedwetting was to tell my friends. They were more than happy to help me! They told me how wonderful It would be for me to be a baby again. They were right!

how is that shameful?
it isn't, and adults who wear diapers don't need to feel ashamed. and children shouldn't push shame on other children who wear diapers!

that is my soap box for today

happy bunny snuggles!!

Happy birthday to me

Oh dear!

I forgot! Thursday was my birthday...

well not my birthday as in the day I was born, but my birthday as the day I was... re-born. February 18th 2009 was the day when I went back into diapers to deal with my bedwetting. I made it such a wonderfully warm experience... i cried because i felt so happy. I still feel happiest when I am all ready for bed...

the fact that I tend to naturally have wet diapers in the morning is nothing compared to the happiness i fee at night. It doesn't even bother me.. I don't even think about it. I have had no real problems because i refused to make it a problem.

anyway, happy birthday... or re-birthday to me :) I am now 1 year old!

there is nothing like.

There is nothing like the feeling of diapering up after a shower. Putting on a fresh diaper when you are squeaky clean just makes you feel sooooo nice. don't you think?

I love it more than anything...

You know I really love just diapering up and snuggling my bunny... nothing makes me feel sooo happy and peaceful. But you all know that...

However, there is an interesting thing.. I can ALWAYS tell that there is a new moon out before it is night. In fact, today was a new moon and I felt it in the afternoon.

I have noticed that every new moon I really get strong feelings about wanting to diaper up and be a sweet baby. It is very strong during the 2-3 days around the new moon. Oddly enough this is the time when my art is the best.

So I want nothing more than to be diapered up and drawing pictures during the new moon. but why this time? and why is it every new moon... I really want to know...

recycling day..

So today was the first recycling day this year that hasn't been cold or rainy. Every 2 weeks I have to take out plastic bottles, cans, glass, etc out to be recycled. My town is VERY strict about garbage. All kitchen waste and burnable waste (including disposable diapers) are thrown out on mondays and thursdays (though I only do it once a week at the most). All plastic wrappers and plastic bags are thrown out on fridays. Garbage that goes out to the landfill is on tuesday.... but I have only thrown out about 1-2 bags of that for the last 6 years...

anyway, so most recycle nights are rainy and I just want to diaper up and snuggle with my bunnies. But tonight was pretty nice. So I told myself 'No diaper until my recycling is out.' well I managed to get all my recycling out!! now my room is that much cleaner (I am a neat freak) I came home and my bunny was nice enough to diaper her baby...

ahhhh nothing like a clean room and a clean diaper...

some snugly words

ahhhh

I was reading Adrian's blog again, and she talked about snow. Well, being a native Wyomingite, I certainly have had my share of snow for this lifetime. But after living in Tokyo, I can see how romantic it can be.

Well anyway, she told us to make sure that we are all diapered up.

ahhhhh I kind of like how that sounds... being "diapered up" It feels so... warm and snugly.

I could say "I'm wearing a diaper" but saying "I'm all diapered up" sounds more warm and fantastic.

I also like the word diapering... as a noun.

My diapering has been a beautiful experience for me...

When I am diapered up, and snuggling my bunnies I find bliss

well, I got to take a shower, have my bunny diaper me up... and work on a picture :)

I have some time to get some work done on some pictures this week.. that is good

Me and the AB community..

Well there has been several posts on Adrian's blog about the AB (adult baby) community. Now, yes, I am an adult, I wear diapers, I prefer to make it as happy, sweet and babyish as possible. I have totally turned adult baby since I started my bed wetting. I love it because it makes me feel wonderfully warm and happy. I absolutely love it, there is no doubt about it..

But I am not a part of the AB community. I haven't actively sought out a community of people to share my new fondness for diapers. I have checked out some of the sites, yes, but they were not anything I was really interested in.

Plus, being a girl, I feel very intimidated by the community. Since I am a girl, I feel that hounds will be all over me asking for my picture or asking to come to my place and change my diaper for me and all sorts things I simply am not interested in doing so. If I refuse them, then they would probably accuse me of not really being a girl, and I would have to justify to them that I am who I really am...

I am totally NOT interested in that at all.

I don't mind talking to people who enjoy wearing diapers, but when that conversation gets beyond a PG rating, I get a little scared.

I am asexual, and I am very very very wearing of any unwanted sexual advances, and being in a community which is very sexualized. I feel very uncomfortable there.

Another reason why I don't partake in the AB community is that I have a community of friends who already support me for who I am. My good friends all know I wear diapers, and they know I chose to be a baby.. and they think it is AWESOME of me to do such a thing. In fact, they encouraged me to do so. My friends know of my child-like personality, and they knew going back into diapers would be wonderful for me. They were right

And the most important reason is that my diapers are a very personal part of my life. My friends all know I wear diapers, but they have not seen my diapers. Wearing diapers is a personal thing between my bunnies and I. That is the way I like it

So I don't feel a real need or desire to be active in the AB community...I am doing fine without them, and I will continue to do fine :) I already have all the support I need.

happy warm winter

ahhhhhhhhh

One of the greatest things they have here in Japan are hot carpets, which are rugs with a heater under it. It is kind of like an electric blanket.

Lately I have really been enjoying changing my diapers on the hot carpet! It is sooo snuggly! Then laying on the carpet in the diaper makes me feel sooo much like a little baby. It is pure bliss

I am so happy :)

I am blessed!

Truly blessed to return to my infancy as I sleep every night.

Whatever happened to my body to make me bed wet... I don't care anymore

If it get's worse, I'll live, perhaps happier than I am now.

I can't even remember what it is like to sleep without a diaper on anymore.

I don't want to remember

I have really accepted my bedwetting as a part of who I am, and who I will most likely be for the rest of my life.

That warm feeling I get, in my heart... when I am all diapered up and ready for bed... that warm, magical feeling of just peaceful joy... is what I look forward to every day of my life.

Just knowing everything is nursery printed, and for babies... no ikky adult diapers... no strange colors, no medical words... but pure cute diapers from the time of my own childhood... makes it even more special.

ahhhh

I am going to snuggle some bunnies now

One of the best things for me now is after I get home from work, I take a shower. After I shower and I put in my diaper and my jammies.

no matter how hard a day I had

no matter how stressful of a day I had

everything bad just goes away... with baby diapers and bunny snuggles

It has nearly been 1 year since

I still smile smile smile like my first day.

The bunnies also help too

New diaper covers

ahhhhh my new diaper covers were suppose to be shipped out today, so that I would have got them today. I checked the tracking number and it said that it is not in the computer. But oh well. I still have a clean diaper to wear tonight. I guess that is all that matters.

So where does one get diapers in Japan?

I know there are two places (though I heard of a place near Ueno Station in Tokyo where I can find them... but it is an expensive little sex-shop, and I hate the idea of going near a sex shop. I am too sweet and innocent... and it violates my lolita ethics) . One place is kind of a secret little website/house where you can order things. It seems popular, but you cant choose your fabric... and it seems really difficult to order from

So I order from O&P, http://www.omutsu.co.jp/

They tend to have everything I need... but they don't have a great selection of super cute fabrics. Sometimes they do have something utterly cute that I have to buy. This time I ordered two new covers... This is the fabric I chose.

I hope they come soon. I am sure the little quilt bunnies will be super cute, and the strawberries are sooo kawaii for lolita girls like myself.

Now the cloth I use can be found here.

I love the bunnies :) and they really help keep my other bunnies dry :)

And that is my baby life.... :) I love love it, because it is sooooo kawaii and it makes me feel soooooooo happy!

I am a silly little happy girl :)

all the little things add up

I was reading Adrian's blog today. This is really my only connection to the Adult-baby world I seemed to have entered. Honestly, since I am asexual, I tend to find the sexual fetish around most AB sites to be rather.. well yucky. I don't feel I can relate to most of what I have found. Adrian offers an escape from the normal AB world. She was born, put into diapers and has needed them every second of her life. Born completely incontinent and now in her 20's, she has learned to love her diapers.

I can relate to her in a way, suddenly becoming a bed wetter and finding happiness through diapers. Being in Japan, I am kind of sad that I can't get the adult sized baby diapers she gets (the company cant send them to me, I already asked)... maybe I will order some next time I am in america... BUT I do really really enjoy my japanese cloth diapers, mostly because I am very happy that I do buy them in the baby store :)

Anyway, Adrain was talking about a little thing that makes her happy, which was being gently padded on the bottom while in diapers. Now I have never been gently padded on the bottom while in diapers, because I live alone... but if somebody were to do it to me, I would be giddy :)

The fact is, there are about a million little tiny thing about being back in diapers that I absolutely love.

All these little tiny things add up into a wonderful little experience that I really look forward to having every night.

here are just a few

I love the sent of baby powder... in fact I always puff some on my nose before i powder myself. it is such a soft sweet sent.

I love lifting the cloth up as i put on my diaper, I suddenly feel super protected.

I love the little crackling of the vinyl as I move ever so slightly.

I love that breath I release when I finish putting on the diaper.

I love looking at the cute bunnies on my nursery printed diaper covers

I love the feeling of laying on my belly and drawing pictures while in a diaper on a warm summer night

I love the toasty warm feeling of my diaper under my jammies and blanket in a cold winter night.

I love how it feels on my lower bottom... just warm, nice and snuggly..

I love how the vinyl sticks to my skin.

I love how easy it is for me to smile when i am diapered

I love how it feels, sounds, and smells...

I love seeing the bulk under my jammies..

I love the fact that I don't have to worry about anything.

I love how my diapers also erase any stress and sadness I may have

I love that little peaceful warm feeling I get in my heart...

I love how it feels so... peaceful and right.

I can go on and on.. but I have learned to love all these little tiny tiny thing you get to experience when in a diaper. I have really enjoyed it every night since my first night nearly 1 year ago. Now I cant ever imagine what it was like to not have to wear diapers. It just feels like it is the most perfect thing for me to do.

wow, all these little things really do add up, making diapers something that goes beyond keeping your bed dry at night. And decided to be a baby again, that too has helped me learn to make them an extremely positive factor in my life. 1+1+1... really does add up to a million

I love love love the fact that I am back in diapers, nothing has brought me so much joy, so much peace, so much happiness. I am a million times better with them than without.