nothing new :) just here with my bunnies. I kind of slept in today since I don't have to work (scary! me not working?)

I haven't been wetting me bed so much lately. I don't know it kind of goes in and out in phases.. I suppose I could sleep without a diaper tonight and wake up dry. That is, if i could even fall asleep without a diaper anymore. Probably not.

I have always had a touch of insomnia, and have always had a hard time falling asleep. I can not for the life of me sleep in a moving vehicle, whether it be a bus, train, airplane or whatnot. If somebody is snoring, I can not sleep period.

It normally takes me 40~60 min to fall asleep. Even my mom had trouble putting me to sleep when I was a baby...

It was really bad when I was a teenager, when it would take me 90~120 min!

But I have noticed that ever since I started wearing diapers at night, I have found it easier to fall asleep. I now can fall asleep in 20~30 min.

I guess being all diapered up helps remind my body of being a baby and relaxes me enough to fall asleep easier.

So I guess even though my wetting isn't so bad at this time, I still have another reason to keep on wearing diapers as I sleep...

Easter with my BUNNIES

Easter is coming!! Yeah!!
Now I am not super religious, but I love easter. Ok, I love bunnies! I really really really love bunnies! That is why I have almost 20 bunnies on my bed who sleep with me every night. They help me get over my general loneliness.

Both my mom and a friend of mine sent me bunnies for easter! Lets just say my room is bunny heaven!

I even have bunnies on my diapers (both the cloth and the diaper covers)

I am also really into lolita fashion, and have been since before becoming a bed-wetting AB. Lolita fashion is all about little girl innocence and sweetness. I love combining easter and lolita because it gives me an excuse to focus on easter dresses. When I was a child I LOVED easter dresses. I wanted to wear nothing but easter dresses everyday. Well, now that I am also lolita, I get a chance to wear easter dresses! LOL I also have an Alice dress.. and I am thinking of making a bonnet.

SO my bunnies and I are planning a party. I am going to wear one of my pastel dresses... oh dear I wish I had a yellow dress, but I will most likely go with Alice Blue or pink... and my bunnies and I are going to begin with a tea party. It will be like a little girls tea party. Maybe my teddy bears will come too, but they have been having a tea party for the last 2 months.. They like to talk about philosophy and politics over tea... Now they are having some discussion about Shakespeare or something .. silly bears

So the bunnies and I will then eat carrot soup! I LOVE carrot soup. I only started to make it because carrots are very inexpensive. IF you make it well it has the texture of a potato soup but with carrot nutrition and without potato starch. Plus my bunnies love it.
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After our carrot soup, we may go for a walk in the park, paint easter eggs... decorate the room in more pastels.


Yeah, with me being lolita, AB, and a bunny lover EASTER is a wonderful little time for me to fully be me...

and well, all the other days of the year have to be like easter..

in the mean time, I found a cute little bunny video in Japanese. I love the music. Usagi is rabbit in Japanese ;)

I LOVE this song... oh I NEED to sing it at Karaoke... and one of my little bunnies always dances to it..

maybe i should try..

You know I was thinking... Maybe I should try some disposable diapers here in Japan... just to see what they are like... maybe do reviews?

I don't know..


what do you think?

Adult diapers in Japan

Ok, There are plenty of adult diapers in Japan... but from what research I have done into them, I am totally not interested in them at all.

One of the highest rated adult diaper in Japan is Attends, which as Adrian says is only a mid-class diaper. Plus here they are all "cloth like," there is no plastic backed diapers at all in this country. I am only a bed wetter, so I don't need to wear diapers all the time, but If i did have to, I don't think I would feel very safe in any of the adult diapers offered here in Japan.

First of all, I really like lolita fashion, and I wear a lot of expensive dresses. They are super cute and make me feel really happy :) Like my diapers do at night. But If I needed diapers during the day, I would like something that would make me feel safe...

And another reason why I really don't like adult diapers in Japan is the marketing behind them. I am in my 20's, and technically and adult. Even though I am a bit Adult Baby, I still have the freedoms and responsibilities of an adult. But I am a young adult. Adult diapers are not marketed for adults... rather they are marketed for old people. If you go to the web sites or the stores, you see a bunch of smiling people in their late 60s~80s. The packaging shows animated grandma and grandpa with their canes, walkers, and wheelchairs. Or they show people who are sick and bed ridden...

I am not old, nor am I sick nor bed ridden.

I am just a girl who was taking medicine for something un-related, which caused her bladder to go weak at night (or that is the most probable cause because the meds really made me have to go, like every 5 min). so my bladder doesn't work that well.. but that doesn't make me old nor sick in bed.

I am sure that there are many people in their 20s-30s and so on who need diapers.

But this idea that they are only for 'old and sick' makes me feel really bad about them.

I am very happy with my diaper choice... cloth diapers with nursery prints bought from a baby store. Besides, I am closer in age to babies than I am to grandmothers...

Well it is night time here, and I am all diapered up, ready for some bunny snuggles and sleep.


I remember a few months after I first started wearing diapers. I wondered if it was strange to like wearing diapers, as I have found... and is it strange to be a baby about it.

Well I asked my best friend..

she told me no! it isn't strange at all. I am cute and I am happy with it.. and most important my bunnies are really happy with it and that is all that matters.

I guess as long as I am happy.

the new moon is coming and this time I am mentally preparing. I always have strong urges to just be a baby and snuggle up during the new moon. I am still curious as to why that is... But i think about it all the time during the days of the new moon.

what about you, do you have any certain times when you just feel like you need to be a baby?



on an unrelated topic, the Paralymics have started (or will be starting really soon). I always think that the Paralymics are really cool because the athletes go through great odds and challenges to compete. I mean, visually impaired downhill skiing just amazes me. Now I can not ski... but to do it and not be able to see. The same thing goes with visually impaired biathlon. To ski blindly, then shoot a target... that is really inspirational.
I have known a medalist in the 2004 Paralympics... and this year I know another competitor. She is in a wheelchair and I think it is really cool that she is competing.

oh dear!

oh dear! i forgot that I have to approve my comments now! I simply forgot! I am not used to it at all..

Anyway, i just got in my diaper and I have my bunny with me. She is still kind of sad for loosing her blanket... but we are trying to move on.

once again i have been thinking about what Adrian said in her last post... incontinence just... well happens and in her case there is nothing she can do about it. My bed wetting just happens too... really there is no rhyme or reason. I can just drink the water for my pills and wake up soaked, or I can drink a couple of cups of hot chocolate before going to bed and wake up as dry as a bone.

I cant really imagine what it is like for her though... I mean I cant imagine being at the movies or a broadway play and making a mess... But it is her life. But I like her common sense approach to it. I guess as a bed wetter i am not really forced to TELL everybody as she was. But I guess that makes her stronger in her own way.

I guess it is just how how you choose to deal with it. I choose to make it a positive thing in my life.

as a result, my diapers make me strong too.

anyway, i am sleepy now

nighty night!