my first night

February 15th 2009

That was the day I returned back to my infancy. Or at least, that is how I like to put it.

I was so nervous during the day, because I knew what it was I had to do. It didn't keep me from doubting myself.

Questions from Is this right? Is this ok? to is this strange? is this weird? were constantly buzzing though my head.

that night, when it was time...I got into my jammmies and laid everything out the way it was suppose to be

and i resisted...

I asked myself, don't you want to lay down here? to which I said no-no-no, in a cute little 2 year old girl way.

It took me about 10 min to get the courage to even lay down on the unfolded diaper on my bed.

I then proceeded with the powder. I like the smell of baby powder, and always have, so this wasn't too tough for me. But it is very very important for me, since i wear cloth diapers. I didn't want a rash, that was for certain...

Then it took me about another ten min to convince myself to fold it up and snap the cover on.

I was still wondering, is this a good thing? is this ok?

But it was looking at my snuggle bunny. The bunny who i haven't been able to snuggle with and sleep with because of my previous bed wetting. I sooooo missed sleeping with her. She was telling me, hurry up hurry up!

so i grabbed my snuggle bunny, put her on my chest as I folded the diaper on... and I closed my eyes as I snapped the cover... and tied the waist string...

what happened next was amazing. I suddenly felt 20 pounds lighter! A rush of joy came over me... my snuggle bunny hopped on me and gave me a big big big hug! I cried as i snuggled her...

I cried as my little pink bunny danced in delight to finally have a baby to take care of..

I cried as i had never felt so much... just plain ol' joy. Wearing a diaper just made everything feel right!! It was as if I never really wanted to stop wearing them in the first place. I don't know why I have this feeling, because I am pretty much a normal everyday girl...

Well a normal girl with some childlike tendencies

But having a leaky bladder put me back into diapers at such an early age (i am still in my 20s)

and it ended up being one of the greatest blessings in my life :)

I cant, nor will I try to explain why... but it is, and that is what matters most.

My bunny inspecting my diapers. She approved.

This was just a picture from my Japanese blog. See how cute everything is! This was before the cover i ordered arrived and I was feeling very excited and extremely nervous all at once.

I will tell you more later.

It is time for me to get ready for bed... my bunny wants me to be a baby now :) who am I to disagree with a loving bunny?

Bonne nuit

Aimeé

part 1

Well I guess I should begin by telling you what happened.

Last year at this time I took my medicine and I fell asleep like I normally do. I have been on and off this one type of medicine for years now, and it has done it's job. Well, this particular winter night I fell asleep snuggling my snuggle bunny like always. I fell asleep.

The next morning was a bit shocking, obviously. I was a little wet! Now it wasn't that bad, just a little wet in my jammies. I quickly checked my snuggle bunny to make sure she was ok! she was. It really wasn't too bad, but i was worried about it all day long.

The next night was a bit nerve-racking yes. I couldn't sleep well. But i was relieved when I woke up fine the next morning.

A week or so passed and everything was all right. Maybe that one time was just a strange bug or something.

But it happened again. A little more than last time.

After about the 3ed or 4th time, I went to the doc to see what was wrong. He said that maybe the pills I have been on and off (they do make me have to go to the bathroom quite a bit) has caused something funky with my bladder. No need to worry... he took me off my pills and gave me some other pills to help stop the bedwetting.

It should go away soon

Well, i had done some research on these pills... they basically make you bloated and make you feel ikky as you sleep.

I didn't have much money at the time, and I didn't care to feel ikky and bloated, so i didn't turn in the prescription.

In the middle of january, it started to get worse and worse. I was beginning to worry about my bunnies way too much. I had to try to clean my futon... which really sucked!

It got to the point were i was going to bed thirsty, without my snuggle bunny, worried all the time and not sleeping well at all!

So I sought out the advice of a trusted friend... who bluntly told me, "Aimée, you are in your 20's, yet you sleep with stuffed animals. You love lolita fashion... your still just a kid you know. "

Of course I agreed.

Then she told me "Just go a few more years younger, and you will be happy."

I knew what she had meant, and I had considered it. I knew if I had to do this, I had to do it right. I didn't want a granny 'adult brief' or something like that. I personally wanted it to look and feel babyish. I knew that this was the best way to make my sudden bed wetting a positive thing, and I knew that this would make me feel happy.

I also knew I couldn't do it alone, so I told my friend A-chan. She told me "Aimée, you ARE getting younger and younger! Knowing you, you HAVE to be a baby!" My dear K-chan told me "diapers are such a good idea! not only will you be safe at night, but you bunnies will be very happy too!"

With the support of my friends, I felt ready! Being in Japan, I found that I could go to the baby store and buy cloth diapers and get them to fit. They make cloth diapers here one-size-fits-all.

They are just cuts of fabric 35 by 70 cm long. A baby could use just one, but an adult can use 8-10.

I got some cloth diapers from a local baby store. Cute nursery printed diapers too :)

I ordered a nursery printed cover from an online store... with little cherries and strawberries on it.

On February 15th 2009, I returned back to my infancy

I will tell you more about that next time.

Hello

Hello!

My name is Aimée. This is my first post. I have decided to blog about something very personal to me ...

I am a bed wetter. I have been a bed wetter for over a year now

And this is NOT a bad thing.

In fact, I believe it is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

In fact, I have found that being a bed wetter has opened up to me a wonderful world of joy and happiness!

I deal with my bedwetting by simply sleeping like a baby, literally, every night. I decided that living the life of an adult baby was the best thing for me.

I need diapers to sleep, and I love wearing them sooooooooo much! I am the happiest girl ever when I wear them and snuggle up with my bunnies!

First of all I do not wear adult diapers, nor have I ever

I do wear baby diapers with cute nursery prints! cuteness = happiness

It was the best way for me to take something that could have been potently damaging to my mental health and make it a fun game that I love!

Ok, let me lay down some rules.

On this blog I will talk about my thoughts and feelings about wearing diapers

I will share with you my lovely child-like heart

I will share with you pictures of my stuffed animals.

I will NOT be talking about children, period.

I will ignore all requests to see my picture

I will ignore all message I feel is inappropriate.

Everything here will be rated... well PG

I have a sweet little kind tender heart. I want to keep it it sweet and pure :)

And I love wearing my diapers and snuggling my bunnies as I sleep at night.

and it is night time now, I am all ready for bed

so

nighty night.