Don't you love it...

Ahhh the weather is starting to cool down... which means I can wear my pajamas again!

I have really fallen in love with that feeling of being all diapered up under your jammies!

It makes me feel so... so snugglish! Thats a good word to describe it. Snugglish!


And snuggling with my bunny as I sleep... It is kind of magical, wouldn't you say?

Last night all my dream were just awesome too! then waking up... well that felt wonderful too...

Well byebye for now... have a snuggish day!

Traveling home

Yeah!! I will be traveling home to see my friends and family really soon

I am really looking forward to leaving Japan this time... and to think, the next time I leave Japan it will be FOR GOOD.

I am getting tired of living here, even though I do like Japanese style cloth diapers. That is NOT a reason for me to stay here. All my friends and family back in the states are living their live, and I am stuck here doing nothing, really. I hate being so far away from everybody... and not being a part of their lives.

So I have decided to move back to America as soon as possible.

I don't know how or what is going to happen, but I think it will be good.

This time will just be a few weeks, next time I will be home!

cooler weather

ahhhhh yeah! The weather has finally decided to become a touch cooler during that night! I can sleep SO MUCH BETTER now that is not hot and humid all night.

Lately I am reminded of how nice it is to wake up diapered as well. While I still like the feeling of falling asleep diapered more than waking up such, there still is a certain degree of peace to it. If I wet, and now that it is cooler and I am sleeping better I sometimes do, or if I am dry, it doesn't really matter.

The peaceful feeling of it all is magical!

my story

Ok so I have been taking a bit of time here and there working on my story. I think I mentioned it a while back.

Here is the rundown of the story

Well the main character is really rather strong. She had a normal childhood until her mom went crazy (this is NOTHING like my mom) and took all her childhood toys away from her. She loved her bunnies a lot, but all but one was taken away when her mom snapped. She was also pulled out of her ballet and gymnastics classes and basically had everything she loved taken away from her. She continued to be a normal child as much as she could with the help of her best friend.

Fast forward a few years to when she is in high school. She makes cheer, despite her mother's objections (her father supports her though). Her mom was ivy-leauge plans for her, which she does not want to do. Cheer is the one positive thing in her life and makes her a very very warm, open hearted, positive person.. despite her upbringing. She can be the most loyal friend, and can cheer anybody up... anybody but mother and a couple of snobby, envious cheerleaders on the squad.

There is a girl at her school who nobody really knows anything about. This girl is kind of weak, and is bullied by other students. She is called a dyke all the times, and generally has a rough time.

This is where our little main character's strength comes out. She decided to try to befriend this abused student in an attempt to end the abuse (and to make a new friend). Well this sets off a chain of events which leads to her thinking about her sexuality for the first time (she has never really thought about it before)..

and this is the crossroads. Now I can continue the story in two different ways. One was can be a self-discovery story based off her sexuality (or lack there of, I don't know anything about sexuality myself so it is tough for me to write about it) and relationship with her friend... in which the story can be read by most anybody.

Or I can take it down the original path I intended to take it. Basically her relationship leads to a big 'accident.' Her best friend gets seriously injured. Although she herself is ok, she is forced to go to the hospital... But she doesn't end up in the hospital. Rather she ends up being kidnapped and it turns out the whole accident which nearly killed her friend was a set up just to get her. She ends up being put back into diapers and reunited with her long lost bunnies. I don't think she would love the diapers as much as I do personally... She is going to go through most of it without really knowing what is going on to her.

But unlike an ABDL story, the diapers are not so much the main focus. Her strength and trust in her friends to help her out will be more important. Plus her desire to continue her love for cheer will open a path for her freedom.




I still think my original path would be more dramatic, but it seems a little less real. I think though getting her OUT of the situation is very important. a typical ABDL story would put the characters into diapers and all is happy after that. But I want her to find a way out because it will make her stronger. It will also open up a larger path that will finally heal her past wounds and give her an amazing future.

I wonder if i can finish this... should i go for it? even if i just write it for a few eyes

Running, working out, sleeping, on my

So as you know, lately I have been really really working out. This is crazy! My body has become so strong, and my belly has become so tiny in the past few months. Next year at this time is going to be super crazy. I think I could easily go a size down in diapers because of this.

But there is a problem I suppose. I work out late at night, and I end my stretching. The stretching feels so good, that I have been tending to fall asleep on the floor right after my final stretch! I woke up at 5:00AM with my lights on, computer running and music playing!! I fell asleep after my last stretch, and I was wearing my stinky gym clothes!!

I fell asleep before i could diaper myself up!!


Thank god I didn't wet myself, if I had it would have been a nasty little mess to clean up

I have got to be more careful

and nope, the summer is STILL not ending...