On saturday I fell asleep while using on a pacifier. There was this funny thing about wearing diapers that made me want to use a pacifier from time to time. So i got a cute pacifier with a bunny on it, of course. I love bunnies!!

Oddly it took me a long while to get used to my pacifier. I would normally only use it for a few min at a time. Then my cheeks began to hurt.

They hurt for about 2 weeks, during which i stopped using it.

But since then I have had no problem.

Now i use it from time to time as I sleep. My bunny gives it to me

on a sad note, last night my bunny lost her little blanky! she has been really really sad. I gave her a new blanky but she still seems sad. Hopefully my friend can find it...

bunny snuggle

you know what i love... whenever i put on my diaper I feel like I am just melting... I just love that feeling where you just breath out and you can feel all stress and pressure melt away from your heart!

everything bad just melts away!

and then I grab my snuggle bunny and get some bunny snuggles. Just having one of my bunnies with me really helps my child like side just sink in

I just love the snuggly feeling of it all.


I also love bunnies.

Just as a little aside, I always donate money to rabbit rescues. I just donate a few dollars every now and then... but if that can buy some of the bunnies some fresh hay or help them get a loving warm home, it is worth it. Even though I am a half a world away, I give some money to the love-a-bun rabbit rescue in Florida

I want a pet bunny... well two bunnies really badly. However since i live in Japan and I don't know how long I am going to stay, I cant adopt some. Maybe if i were to move back to the states I could have a bunny... but that would be a financial suicide nowadays...
we'll see...

until now, if you go to the animal shelter, think about taking home a bunny... they are full of snuggles!

Diaper shame..

One of the things I have been thinking about lately is why are so many people so ashamed of diapers?

Personally I am very happy as a diaper wearer, and I don't see anything wrong about it in any way shape or form. But I am an exception.

The shame of diapers come from early childhood. As a baby is is ok, and in fact considered very cute to see babies in diapers. We take pictures of our babies in diapers and display them proudly. But 4 years later, the diaper... the symbol of cuteness for a baby becomes a symbol of pure and utter shame for the young child.

Maybe it is because mom is tired of dealing with diapers and forces the kid out of them (sometimes too early). Diapers becomes something only babies wear.. and 3-4 year old children are NOT allowed to be babies. Children tend to be extremely cruel to anything they see as not-mainstream. Children then tell each other how bad it is to be wearing diapers, even though a lot of them are still wearing diapers! But they develop this mindset, diapers are bad, at such an early age.

at around age 5-6 diapers are strictly forbidden. The ultimate shame!! It is the blunt end of jokes and teasing... and that is accepted and enforced as normal behavior for children

I can't image what an incontinent child of 5-6 goes through, but I am sure it is hell. Anybody who still wears diapers at that age is obviously a failure...

well this shame continues throughout adulthood

and even as a lot of people 'loose control' and begin to need wearing diapers in their adult life, they are extremely shameful. They are too embarrassed to buy diapers in the store. They want the diaper to be as thin and quiet as can be... because all hell will break loose if they are discovered. Adult diapers still continue to be the blunt end of shameful jokes..



Well I don't like this shame at all

I am a diaper wearer, and I am not ashamed of it. It happened and the best thing I could do was to make the best of it. Of course I did it by taking the AB route. Not only did it save me a lot of money, it made me the happiest little baby girl ever.

And what is so shameful about returning to the time when you were your cutest, everybody adored you, and you were taken care of? Nothing! It is pure joy. I am so lucky that I discovered this happiness

In fact the first thing i did when i started bedwetting was to tell my friends. They were more than happy to help me! They told me how wonderful It would be for me to be a baby again. They were right!

how is that shameful?
it isn't, and adults who wear diapers don't need to feel ashamed. and children shouldn't push shame on other children who wear diapers!

that is my soap box for today

happy bunny snuggles!!

Happy birthday to me

Oh dear!

I forgot! Thursday was my birthday...

well not my birthday as in the day I was born, but my birthday as the day I was... re-born. February 18th 2009 was the day when I went back into diapers to deal with my bedwetting. I made it such a wonderfully warm experience... i cried because i felt so happy. I still feel happiest when I am all ready for bed...

the fact that I tend to naturally have wet diapers in the morning is nothing compared to the happiness i fee at night. It doesn't even bother me.. I don't even think about it. I have had no real problems because i refused to make it a problem.

anyway, happy birthday... or re-birthday to me :) I am now 1 year old!

there is nothing like.

There is nothing like the feeling of diapering up after a shower. Putting on a fresh diaper when you are squeaky clean just makes you feel sooooo nice. don't you think?

I love it more than anything...

You know I really love just diapering up and snuggling my bunny... nothing makes me feel sooo happy and peaceful. But you all know that...

However, there is an interesting thing.. I can ALWAYS tell that there is a new moon out before it is night. In fact, today was a new moon and I felt it in the afternoon.

I have noticed that every new moon I really get strong feelings about wanting to diaper up and be a sweet baby. It is very strong during the 2-3 days around the new moon. Oddly enough this is the time when my art is the best.

So I want nothing more than to be diapered up and drawing pictures during the new moon. but why this time? and why is it every new moon... I really want to know...

recycling day..

So today was the first recycling day this year that hasn't been cold or rainy. Every 2 weeks I have to take out plastic bottles, cans, glass, etc out to be recycled. My town is VERY strict about garbage. All kitchen waste and burnable waste (including disposable diapers) are thrown out on mondays and thursdays (though I only do it once a week at the most). All plastic wrappers and plastic bags are thrown out on fridays. Garbage that goes out to the landfill is on tuesday.... but I have only thrown out about 1-2 bags of that for the last 6 years...

anyway, so most recycle nights are rainy and I just want to diaper up and snuggle with my bunnies. But tonight was pretty nice. So I told myself 'No diaper until my recycling is out.' well I managed to get all my recycling out!! now my room is that much cleaner (I am a neat freak) I came home and my bunny was nice enough to diaper her baby...

ahhhh nothing like a clean room and a clean diaper...

some snugly words

ahhhh

I was reading Adrian's blog again, and she talked about snow. Well, being a native Wyomingite, I certainly have had my share of snow for this lifetime. But after living in Tokyo, I can see how romantic it can be.

Well anyway, she told us to make sure that we are all diapered up.

ahhhhh I kind of like how that sounds... being "diapered up" It feels so... warm and snugly.

I could say "I'm wearing a diaper" but saying "I'm all diapered up" sounds more warm and fantastic.

I also like the word diapering... as a noun.

My diapering has been a beautiful experience for me...

When I am diapered up, and snuggling my bunnies I find bliss

well, I got to take a shower, have my bunny diaper me up... and work on a picture :)

I have some time to get some work done on some pictures this week.. that is good

Me and the AB community..

Well there has been several posts on Adrian's blog about the AB (adult baby) community. Now, yes, I am an adult, I wear diapers, I prefer to make it as happy, sweet and babyish as possible. I have totally turned adult baby since I started my bed wetting. I love it because it makes me feel wonderfully warm and happy. I absolutely love it, there is no doubt about it..

But I am not a part of the AB community. I haven't actively sought out a community of people to share my new fondness for diapers. I have checked out some of the sites, yes, but they were not anything I was really interested in.

Plus, being a girl, I feel very intimidated by the community. Since I am a girl, I feel that hounds will be all over me asking for my picture or asking to come to my place and change my diaper for me and all sorts things I simply am not interested in doing so. If I refuse them, then they would probably accuse me of not really being a girl, and I would have to justify to them that I am who I really am...

I am totally NOT interested in that at all.

I don't mind talking to people who enjoy wearing diapers, but when that conversation gets beyond a PG rating, I get a little scared.

I am asexual, and I am very very very wearing of any unwanted sexual advances, and being in a community which is very sexualized. I feel very uncomfortable there.

Another reason why I don't partake in the AB community is that I have a community of friends who already support me for who I am. My good friends all know I wear diapers, and they know I chose to be a baby.. and they think it is AWESOME of me to do such a thing. In fact, they encouraged me to do so. My friends know of my child-like personality, and they knew going back into diapers would be wonderful for me. They were right

And the most important reason is that my diapers are a very personal part of my life. My friends all know I wear diapers, but they have not seen my diapers. Wearing diapers is a personal thing between my bunnies and I. That is the way I like it

So I don't feel a real need or desire to be active in the AB community...I am doing fine without them, and I will continue to do fine :) I already have all the support I need.

happy warm winter

ahhhhhhhhh

One of the greatest things they have here in Japan are hot carpets, which are rugs with a heater under it. It is kind of like an electric blanket.

Lately I have really been enjoying changing my diapers on the hot carpet! It is sooo snuggly! Then laying on the carpet in the diaper makes me feel sooo much like a little baby. It is pure bliss

I am so happy :)