I am blessed!

Truly blessed to return to my infancy as I sleep every night.

Whatever happened to my body to make me bed wet... I don't care anymore

If it get's worse, I'll live, perhaps happier than I am now.

I can't even remember what it is like to sleep without a diaper on anymore.

I don't want to remember

I have really accepted my bedwetting as a part of who I am, and who I will most likely be for the rest of my life.

That warm feeling I get, in my heart... when I am all diapered up and ready for bed... that warm, magical feeling of just peaceful joy... is what I look forward to every day of my life.

Just knowing everything is nursery printed, and for babies... no ikky adult diapers... no strange colors, no medical words... but pure cute diapers from the time of my own childhood... makes it even more special.

ahhhh

I am going to snuggle some bunnies now

One of the best things for me now is after I get home from work, I take a shower. After I shower and I put in my diaper and my jammies.

no matter how hard a day I had

no matter how stressful of a day I had

everything bad just goes away... with baby diapers and bunny snuggles

It has nearly been 1 year since

I still smile smile smile like my first day.

The bunnies also help too

New diaper covers

ahhhhh my new diaper covers were suppose to be shipped out today, so that I would have got them today. I checked the tracking number and it said that it is not in the computer. But oh well. I still have a clean diaper to wear tonight. I guess that is all that matters.

So where does one get diapers in Japan?

I know there are two places (though I heard of a place near Ueno Station in Tokyo where I can find them... but it is an expensive little sex-shop, and I hate the idea of going near a sex shop. I am too sweet and innocent... and it violates my lolita ethics) . One place is kind of a secret little website/house where you can order things. It seems popular, but you cant choose your fabric... and it seems really difficult to order from

So I order from O&P, http://www.omutsu.co.jp/

They tend to have everything I need... but they don't have a great selection of super cute fabrics. Sometimes they do have something utterly cute that I have to buy. This time I ordered two new covers... This is the fabric I chose.

I hope they come soon. I am sure the little quilt bunnies will be super cute, and the strawberries are sooo kawaii for lolita girls like myself.

Now the cloth I use can be found here.

I love the bunnies :) and they really help keep my other bunnies dry :)

And that is my baby life.... :) I love love it, because it is sooooo kawaii and it makes me feel soooooooo happy!

I am a silly little happy girl :)

all the little things add up

I was reading Adrian's blog today. This is really my only connection to the Adult-baby world I seemed to have entered. Honestly, since I am asexual, I tend to find the sexual fetish around most AB sites to be rather.. well yucky. I don't feel I can relate to most of what I have found. Adrian offers an escape from the normal AB world. She was born, put into diapers and has needed them every second of her life. Born completely incontinent and now in her 20's, she has learned to love her diapers.

I can relate to her in a way, suddenly becoming a bed wetter and finding happiness through diapers. Being in Japan, I am kind of sad that I can't get the adult sized baby diapers she gets (the company cant send them to me, I already asked)... maybe I will order some next time I am in america... BUT I do really really enjoy my japanese cloth diapers, mostly because I am very happy that I do buy them in the baby store :)

Anyway, Adrain was talking about a little thing that makes her happy, which was being gently padded on the bottom while in diapers. Now I have never been gently padded on the bottom while in diapers, because I live alone... but if somebody were to do it to me, I would be giddy :)

The fact is, there are about a million little tiny thing about being back in diapers that I absolutely love.

All these little tiny things add up into a wonderful little experience that I really look forward to having every night.

here are just a few

I love the sent of baby powder... in fact I always puff some on my nose before i powder myself. it is such a soft sweet sent.

I love lifting the cloth up as i put on my diaper, I suddenly feel super protected.

I love the little crackling of the vinyl as I move ever so slightly.

I love that breath I release when I finish putting on the diaper.

I love looking at the cute bunnies on my nursery printed diaper covers

I love the feeling of laying on my belly and drawing pictures while in a diaper on a warm summer night

I love the toasty warm feeling of my diaper under my jammies and blanket in a cold winter night.

I love how it feels on my lower bottom... just warm, nice and snuggly..

I love how the vinyl sticks to my skin.

I love how easy it is for me to smile when i am diapered

I love how it feels, sounds, and smells...

I love seeing the bulk under my jammies..

I love the fact that I don't have to worry about anything.

I love how my diapers also erase any stress and sadness I may have

I love that little peaceful warm feeling I get in my heart...

I love how it feels so... peaceful and right.

I can go on and on.. but I have learned to love all these little tiny tiny thing you get to experience when in a diaper. I have really enjoyed it every night since my first night nearly 1 year ago. Now I cant ever imagine what it was like to not have to wear diapers. It just feels like it is the most perfect thing for me to do.

wow, all these little things really do add up, making diapers something that goes beyond keeping your bed dry at night. And decided to be a baby again, that too has helped me learn to make them an extremely positive factor in my life. 1+1+1... really does add up to a million

I love love love the fact that I am back in diapers, nothing has brought me so much joy, so much peace, so much happiness. I am a million times better with them than without.